its like TOTALLY!!!

and the sun shine its rays on my face. gods!

TODAY IS SUNDAY and I'M SLEEPING. GODS!

cheers and happy LABOUR DAY EVE

whahahahahahahah!





its just amazing how mum nags at 6.40 am. totally amazing!

feeling - TOTALLY
listening to - stand by me
artist - oasis

when life make a turn
don't turn away
lest you can do
is just walk straight

gods. i so love today. its like kinda magic for today. things really just happen randomly. haha jokes. things. etc. and so on. haha. man. its damn weird LA! man went for a talk today. seriously. i have no interest in exhibition studies and all. not my cup of coke. but the words. woot! its motivating. yeah. MOTIVATION thats what the world needs now man. ok more babbing of nonsense. was having lunch today at design canteen. gods. the conversation we had turned from a serious talk to sex education. haha. from studies to dildo on i gallop. SERIOUSLY can't we have a nice conversation without getting side - tracked. haha. thanks to me actually. WHAHAH.

ok went for a practice at SMU. kinda cool. wasn't as bad as i think it would be. actually its not bad. we're playing WHATSOEVER THINGS. haha its cool. i LOVE that piece. so touching. and sounds full of nonsense. but its NOT. yeah. then got home. did some random stuff. gods. my mum went to buy the korean series da chang jin. and finish watching EVERYTHING by the time i got back. WTF! i think she's mad. how is that possible....... only mums like this knows. gods!

ok it seems like a routine that i post a singular. refined and tasteful picture at every entry. so here it is. a picture to reflect on our life. not really a nice picture thou but the meaning behind it is...... ya something. JUST FEEL. for god's sake.



ok here's the link to the owner. i'm NOT trying to copy him. see. i post a link BACK to him. asses!

http://www.deviantart.com/view/32451898/

ok no photographer's contacts from the senior today. sadly. exhibitionist in singapore science centre. NO THANKS even if there's a photographer. ha! as i say. its not my cup of coke. i'm TOTALLY cracking up. haha. CRACKING UP!

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager. damnit. NO PHOTOGRAPHER'S CONTACT. i need patricia to contact rachna soon. PLS
enjoy!

feeling - quite calm
listening to - fearless
artist - the bravery

a different view on life is better then the usual one
it lighten up my day

gods. haha sorry. i didn't update recently cause i'm quite busy. busy sleeping. haha. been going back to school for the past few days. and getting up at 7 am. these really tired me out. so its the truth i got to get an early sleep. yeah. thats MY reason. haha. if you wanna call me a LIAR and point to me and shout LAZY ASS suit yourselve. whahaha!

monday - freshies talk
tuesday - tcc talk
wednesday - juniors talk

gods. all in the morning. haha. i'm so damn tired. so i saw ALOT of freshies in sch. and found like bunch of pgs. but not so much of cgs. maybe they are hiding. gods knows man. but. haha those cgs i saw are quite. yeah. something. did some arrangement to my tables. still hate the way the aunties screw up my studio table. and still finding my lost chair in school. damn. some ass must have took the red chair and hid it. i can't do anything without my red chair. its kinda like my LUCKY chair. ha!



some picture i found in deviantART again. its SO DAMN COOL LA. haha. sorry over reacted. i always wonder how these people did it in darkroom. so cool.

http://www.deviantart.com/view/32410228/

this is the link to the owner of this picture. which is the MODEL. cool huh. self taken picture. woot. i love all these type of pictures!

tml is the senior talk thingy. i'm so looking forward to it. ha!. gonna ask whether he got any photographer friends i can get in contact wit. so cool la!

gods. i'm hanged to the word LA......

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager. andrew got fashion imaging and i didn't. GANGSTER SIA.
enjoy!

feeling - extremely sedate
listening too - forgotten face
artist - a dream in ireleand

incredible how infomation gets around
i'm totally surprised.

gods. i'm so happy. and slighty taken aback. ha! moses. my school's director sent me a email. regarding about darkroom process and my june holidays. apparently he read my blog. haha. i was like. gods. how he know. ok but its cool. talk to him on msn and all. he told me why the system change and what his looking out for in this new system and all. whoo. speech made by him. haha. so chim la. but i kinda got it. he's a cool guy. anyway. yeah i'm not taking DARKROOM PROCESS. so sad. the time slot crashes with my PROJECT 2. gods. i'm like. oh well. ok. then now i'm hoping i can get into fashion imaging. although its like kinda INTRICATE. cause i think most VSC students wants that. but yeah. hope.

school's starting the week after next. gods. i miss school. TOTALLY different from my secondary school days. gods. kinda weird. haha. but i can't blame myself. school is fun. classes are fun. projects are fun. seriously. i'm so happy i taken the right route in life man. so LUCKY!!!

ok. gosh. i'm looking through deviant art and i saw this picture. its cool. quite interpretive. love it.



deviantART . a different art. HAHA!

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager. a really HAPPY one.
enjoy!

mood - worried
listening to - some final fantasy ost
artist - some jap guy

3 40 and its so quiet

ok gods. lala. my timetable is out. woot! its sucks. haha. one module next month. for the the whole bloody month. just ONE damn module. gods. moses sure hates me. ok after that. another holiday. for the whole of june. i'm having damn HOLIDAY. gosh. damn lame la. i'm gonna do the add/drop thingy. by hook or by crook or by any damn shit. i need to get my june holidays to be filled with DARKROOM PROCESS. gods. it sure sucks.

damn i'm still worrying about something. yeah. kinda stupid when i think back. but yeah. stupid. dumb.

ok sorry i'm ranting nonsenses now. haha. gods. suddenly i'm listening to final fantasy ost. for some reason i miss those games. yeah. spend endless hours trying to get the ultimate weapons and all. gods. i feel so kiddy. come again. i am! hoho!

ok asto just came online and i have no mood to talk to her. cause i'm tired. haha. sorry asto. ASTO. whahaha! sorry man. ARCHITECTURAL FIRM! haha. man u're screwed. whahah. hope i don't get that shit. NO. i WILL never get into a architectural firm. haha. i'll be enjoying myself in some interior and advertising firm. wahaha DESIGN. smell of those cameras and DI and so on. whoooooooo!!!!!!!!!

signing off.
just remember i'm just a teenager or something close to that.
enjoy!

mood - really intoxicated
listening to - its not a fashion statement, its a deathwish
artist - my chemical romance

1 23
i can't slp.
why.
cause shesa is in my head now.

gods. i love freshmen camp. although i'm not a GL. apparently i'm a dumbass to not sign up for that. but i crash the CAMP. whoo. its so fun. met some new freshies. met those year 2 ppl that i don't talk to last time. and met more talking cock assholes around the school. apparently i'm kinda mad on tuesday. haha. playin with water and all with all the comm and entertainment people. and sadly for the freshies. got extremely wet due to our PLAYFULNESS. WHAHAHAHAH. "GRINS". ok for the past few days. i went shesa with andrew and kim and colin. gods. totally out of this world. the feel just dosen't kick in until today. or yesterday. which ever u want. i think that guy who served us thought we want stronger rather then a bigger shesa pot. haha. then its good. REAL good today. and i don't know who's the one kept on sucking the smoke. yeah. and the pot finish so fast. we gotta order the second round in like half an hour. gods. but its fun. HA!

ok i'm gonna crash the camp on friday again. but not long. cause i need to do my prints. darkroom prints. gotta wash my malacca trip photos before the film rot at home. sadly. yeah wish i have the money to just print it out. gods. wonder hows the course talk today. or yesterday. again which ever you want. hope fiq dosen't show the video cause i look like a ass in it.

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager. a damn hyper ACTIVE one.
enjoy!

mood - nervous and tired
listening to - stars
artist - switchfoot

gods. its another 12 hrs to my damn audition. i really hope its all well. or i'm gonna screw my own ass. 4 23 am and i can't slp. gods. what wrong man. ok today i went to watch some singapore;s short films with andrew. kinda shit except for the last 2 films. quite cool. i think the best was the teochew film. damn funny. but sad. haha. lazy to explain the whole story cause 1st. its in teochew. 2nd. u gotta catch it yourselves.

man. went to church on good friday. wha. its so damn early la. 8 am and i went to meet my friend and his family. woot. and like i slept at 4 am on that day. 4 hrs of sleep and went to church. gods. haha. ok saw his side of the family memebers. cousins all. wha. pgs cgs. damn nice la. but admire only. talk to some of them. kinda funky ppl.

yeah. nothing much. school gonna start. can't wake. wonder what's the new timetable gonna be. if i'm gonna get those shit modules. i think i might as well go nafa or someother place. gods. yeah.

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager. not in the RIGHT mind now.
enjoy!

mood - extremly hungry
listening too - 10000 questions
artist - the juliana theory

for some reason. i just love the juliana theory. lol. gods. i totally have no idea. haha. like totally. ok orientation is next week and i can't wait. hoho. excited to see the cgs and pgs of the freshies. yeah. hope its a good coming term. or else my anticipation of the new term goes the bloody drain!

hmm. nothing really happen today unless u count some kid is trying to fight with his mum. at the corridor. some thing happen. yeah. maybe i start something lame.

5 things i like to do when i'm slacking

1. listening to music
2. start talking to myself
3. arrange the table in different manner
4. start polishing my clock
5. drink tea

for god sake. i think i really have nothing to do when i'm slacking. gods. i'm weird. i think everyone's weird. but not as much as me. whahaha!

its GOOD FRIDAY. yeah! enjoy ur holiday.

signing off.
just remember i'm weird.
enjoy!

feeling - dazy
listening to - give em' hell, kid
artist - my chemical romance

good gods. haha. its 4 17 now and i just finish my last game. yeah. kinda dizzy but still trying to write a blog. yeah. i'm weird. ok. just at 10 40 yesterday evening. i spotted. bloody hell. 2 of my favourite barbie doll. planning to kill me. yeah got some shots of them. bloody bitches. and as i was grooming them to be the next singaporean's top model. they are trying to murder me. bitches.



camelia's on the left. amelia's on the right



by the looks of it. i think they're using a sets of keys. mine. and a string to kill me.

yeah caught in the act. luckily for me. i sentence them to the never endless pit. somewhere near my room. yeah.

thats lame. i know. but i'm bored. yeah. went to this girl's website. kinda cool. her illustrations are kinda whacky. not bad. love it. and she's singaporean. wonder which institute she graduated from.

http://www.illustromaniac.com/v2/

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager.
enjoy!

feeling - high
listening to - the final song
artist - the juliana theory

gods. its raining. the man up there really know how to entertain me when i'm drinking wine. ya. yeah. its 3 38 in the morning and i can't sleep. either cause i'm high on booze or i'm just a freak. ok. some words before i carry on my drinking escapdes. u got to make choices in life. no matter how hard it is. never regret for even a second.

yeah. i'm bored. high on alcohol. hyperactive and feeling comfortable on my bed that i. decided to write 30 things about myself.

1. a guy
2. studying in poly
3. boring
4. makes fun of ppl
5. laughs at people for no apparent reason
6. appreciate all genres of music
7. loves booze
8. not really hanged on tobacco
9. social smoker
10. does not clubs
11. envy good graphics
12. loves photography
13. extreme aroused when spotted a nice architecture
14. scream when good interior is sighted
15. dosen't bitch about
16. dosen't whine endlessly
17. refrain from acting like a fag
18. get insulted easily
19. bad in pronounciation
20. always gives bad impression
21. quiet around strangers
22. noisy around friends
23. loves to cook
24. speciality in fried rice
25. loves food
26. 3/4 of daily expenses went to satisfying my appetite
27. 1/4 of daily expenses went to public transport
28. lazy to renew ezlink card
29. extreme showoff
30. a mac fan

yeah. so random. ok. my friend is having trouble again. and i shall not betray her by posting in the blog cause its senseless. (sry man gotta cover up. u know i don't mean it). yeah senseless and stupid conversation. yeah. i hope the man up there flush the toliet till 3 21 pm today. yeah. so someone can't go to ecp. sadly.

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager. who's high on wine now.
enjoy!

feeling - chill
listening to - i'm not okay (i promise)
artist - my chemical romance

gods. i'm high on orange juice yesterday. lol. sry bout that emo post yesterday. lol. kk thats damn random man. gods. ok its 1 37 in the morning and i'm talking to deon. about senseless stuff. something to do with milo and vodka. school culture and irish sling. wooo. stupid conversation. lol. ok. went out with my friends. and met more of my friends at town. but i gotta leave. dinner with my parents. hmm. went to meet my parents. and had dinner at food republic. ok there's a damn interesting event that took place.

as usual food republic is freaking busy on weekends.
i was waiting for a table.
another guy is waiting for the table.
there's 2 table. with 8 seats in total. one side was occupied by 3 women and another by 2 guys. in between them was left with 3 seats. no one sat there.
a women came and sit down. the guy when up to her and say.

he: sry this is my seats. we;re waiting for it. (pointing to his friends)
she: huh. i took the spare seats. no one is seating on it what.
he: please. we're still waiting for the seats. thats why we're not taking up the seats. its rude to the occupants. (apprently this guy tries to speaking like a british. but failed. haha)
she: nononono. u need these 4 seats right. i'm seating on the other 2 seats that is unoccupied. and since u're not seating on the seats. i don't see there's any wrong for me to assume that the seats are empty and i can sit.

this young lady turned to the occupants and started asking them.

she: am i wrong. you all are not taking up this seats right. (and the occupants smiole and nod)
she: there you see. (looking and the guy)
he: ok fine. you can have the seats.

this moment her bf called her and said he have some good seats. and the women left the seats to find her bf.

haha i felt pity for the guy. never cross a women's path. hmm. actually i'm wondering. is the lady right in her explanation or should it be 'first come first serve". sometimes i always wonder if singaporeans are smart in their kiasuness or they are just out to pick a fight. like singaporeans. franky. thats why i prefer to eat in resturants or a home. no worries about seats issues and all. man.

ok temasek design orientation is on 18 and i'm planning to crash the party. wahaha. with some help from my friends and the vice chairman of the orientation. yeah! sucess is a gurantee! ok random. so random.

vodka and milo. u all should try it someday. it sucks. really.

signing off.
remember i'm just teenager.
enjoy!

feeling - emo
listening to - august in bethany
artist - the juliana theory

sometimes i actaully wonder why is life so fucked.
sometimes i try to work out a solution to whatever things i do. buts its so hard
sometimes its just too difficult for me to handle.

i saw this song title on someone's blog. and i happen to got it. so i listened to it. at first it sounds very daze. but i'm listening to it now. again. with this feeling i have. at this moment. this time. its very reflective. very. er. emo. sry gotta say i'm emo now. not because what had happened today. but is just i feel like that at this very moment. its 3 45 am and yeah. naturally. ok for me. naturally. interesting how feelings affects a person's preference of song. to me. feeling is a private thing. a quiet. a silent thought. and song that i'm listening to in reflect to my feeling. is a way of telling people what i'm feeling. what's my thoughts. i guess. thats why i'm a quiet person. not due to the fact i have a problem with my vocal pitch as well as my pronounciation. but is that i prefer to listen. rather then giving comments. although once a while i like to contribute to the senseless noise around. but after all. i alone can already bring in entertainment to anyone. without even speaking. yeah. not that i'm writting this cause i'm emo or what. i'm just stating how i feel right now. maybe not emo. but explaining why i'm a quiet person. yeah. i know some people are noisy and very socialable. but i just need some time. before i could talk. not that i hate strangers all. i like to meet new friends. is just i feel close up whenever i meet new friends. yeah. for some reason.

sorry to all who thinks i'm weird. queer. quiet or whatever. its me. and to my friends who knew me for the past 5 years. i rather like to hear the conversation u all have and your insults on me rather then contribute to it. cause at least i don't need to talk so much and make a fool out of myself. and at least i know you all still remember me as a person. yeah.

so yeah life's like this.
i won't kill myself. trust me.
signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager.
enjoy!

feeling - emotionless
listening to - the final song
artist - the juliana theory

gods. i feel nth today. actually not nth. eh. kinda depressed. emo. happy. nervous. all mixed together. lol. so i just put emotionless. simple. ok. practise for my audition. hmm play some games. got a msg from a person. yeah thats about it. then my brother walk into my room. at 4 pm. suddenly. then he shot me with a surprising question. did u ever got backstabbed by someone u considered friend. or close friend.

this question was so sudden. and of course i just say go away to my brother. but man. this thing sets me thinking. i did got backstabbed once. as gods i remember it well. well. once bitten twice shy. this backstabbing frenzy is like a bloody nightmare to me. it didn't just happen in a day. it happened for a few months behind my back. i don't even know shit about it. till i found out from my other friend. gods. i was like shocked and all.

ages ago i used to be a person. open to all. i don't mind sharing my secrets to people i know. but nowadays. i'm more confided. more selective on who to communicate with and cautious on new friends. yeah. thats me now. but still. i'm kinda normal in any other way.

well. all i can say is life is full of interesting things. thats why we have emotions. to differenciate the causes and effects. the pain from the pleasure. the saddness from the happiness. all i can hope for is. just live with it. yeah. sadly this post is kinda random. haha. really. maybe wat i'm listening to and wat condition i'm in really affects my mood in writing. like now. its hot. and i'm listening to a emo music. not that i'm a emo person. haha. i'm proud to be not a so damn emo person. lucky for my parents. or the probably gotta send me to hospital at least once a week. woo! ok random post. random sentences. senseless writtings.

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager. not so much of a emo 1.
enjoy!

feeling - happy
listening to - linger
artist - the cranberries

gods. the afternoon is so damn hot but the night is freaking cooling. what in the world is going on? lol. its kinda relaxing today. hmm. i went out oday. finally. gods. ok met my friend at national library. study abit. i'm not studying. just accompanying him to study. yeah. and he was using my mac when he found something. lol.


he: is that derek's blog
me: yeah haha. why?
he: my god. wtf. why are u having his blog.
me: nah. just to read. yeah. you know the usual stuff.
he: yeah right. his my ex man. it makes u kinda weird to have his blog. somemore u don't know him.
me: thats where it all started. haha. just shut up and read.
he: bitch!

yeah and he read on. and on.

he: wha so emo. wha. haha.
me: see the heading.
he: yeah yeah shut up. emo sia.
me: bitch. u miss him.
he: shut up. u know him. (pointing at another guy other then derek) my friend likes him.
me: oh really. too bad. his attached to derek.
he: ya right. ya so he check his friendster all. haha totally over him.
me: yeah.
he: ok you know what. i should stop reading. emo sia. makes me think of him all.
me: yeah watever. bitch.
he: wat!

then i close the browser. lol. kinda stupid and pointless conversation. but it happened. today. haha. really random man. ok after that i went town all. saw a few cg and pg. make some comments about them with he. and yeah went home. and he was like whining about his american idol and he can't miss it all. but his late for the show. haha. my fault. i read the time wrongly. i can't read when things are upside down. yeah thats why my orientation can't be upside down. haha.

ok this is kinda stupid post. dedicated to he. who must not be name. yeah. actually he's he. better leave it like that. lol.

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager.
enjoy!

feeling - satisfy
listening to - the boys of summer
artist -ataris

gods. it rained today. and its so damn heavy and with the huge wind blowing. it broke my mum's favourite glass cup. some weird glass thingy bough from china. whaha. ok i'm quite happy today. not as despressing and the rain. wow the rain rocks man. its damn cooling. haha. love the rain when its damn heavy and windy. oh and i did not go out today. again. wanted to. friends ask me out all but its raining. lol don't wanna get myself wet. haha. so yeah. nth much today.



cool huh. just saw this today. whoa love to do this stuff one of these days. if i can get my camera. sob.

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager.
enjoy!

feeling - moody
listening to - summer '79
artist - ataris

gods. today feel kinda weird. kinda like a depressing day where everyone goes to sch and study. listening to teachers whine about their subjects and why you should get As. lol. but for me. i'm trapped at home. doing practically nothing. not that i can't go out. but just it feels kinda weird going out. lol. no cg and pg for me to look at. so yeah. waste of a day if i go out. gods. played a few rounds of games and i'm getting real moody. lol saw the canmpus superstar thingy on channel U. kinda emo those kids. lol. getting upset over this and that. but understandable. lol. those cg and pg u hang around. feels kinda weird if u don't see them ard anymore. lol. i'll feel sad naturally. lol. ok and despite those emo stuff they say and all. they look kinda chirpy in the end. haha gd for them i say. those young kids. well. from that to now. all i did was go and get a bottle of coke and look at the stars. its like i did it for 2 3 hrs. zzzzz. kinda queer for me to do that. haha. my mom things i'm weird. since i don't do that everyday. lol. ok i really have nth to write.

signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager.
enjoy!

feeling - relax
listening to - great romance of the 20th century
artist - taking back sunday

woot. finally i get back my blog and run it up. ok i'm sure i'm gonna update at least once a week. gotta keep it running to kill my boredom. yeah. gods i'm so happy. i actually skined my blog. cool i nv did that. lol. i'm on sky high man. ok. gods. went to band prac today. and heard they got a audition to the main. woo i'm waiting for this shit for a long time. gotta faster get my ass up to the main so i don't need to go on sundays for band prac. then yeah. gonna join hilmi in his band. yeah. oh there's new instrument here. in the band. and i got the honour of using it for 2 pieces. gods. tell u all. it sucks. haha serious. jupiter bass trombone. the tone is too bright. gods. ok after all the talking and playing. i'm on the mrt home and guess wat. whew i saw 2 cg and 3 pg. cool huh. they're hot but yeah. just admiring them for far. hmm. had dinner with my parents and all at HAN SHER (My Humble House) at esplanade. kinda cool setting. no wonder the place sounds like fish market when i reach there. sooooo many ppl. but all are like excutives. rich bastards. yeah thats the end. got damn full with all the wine i had with my dad. lol. his the man.

yeah signing off.
remember i'm just a teenager.
enjoy!

ok this is cool. test post. i'll do it later tonight.